another week at home

it seems to have been a week since i have last written here. i don't want this to be a general blog, so i have been avoiding to come here to write. i guess i shouldn't do that, as i may not blog here at all sometimes.
today was to be the day for me to leave to california. i was to begin my "new job" next monday, but the plans have been changed. when you work for the government, you have to be what they tagged as "VetPro". it is a certification that you are who you are and your license is really yours. it is to certify that you are not a terrorist.
when i had worked at the Miami Veterans hospital, i did this. or so i thought i did. each and every paper they requested, all the questions asked and answered, i did that. every form filled out, every picture supplied. diplomas, birth certificates, etc, etc, etc. they gave me access to the hospital, so i do believe i was vetproed. what it turned out to be, is that the person who was responsible for all this paper work and turning it all in to the right department, never filed my papers. therefore, i was never vetproed. for nine months, i worked at the Miami VA medical center, ILLEGALLY!
now, because there was some man in Miami, who is no longer there, who did not complete his job, it is preventing me from starting my job.
now, because some man in Miami, didn't complete his job, the new man in California has to complete it so that i can start my new job.
now, because of some man in Miami, i am sitting at my home in illinois, instead of in the seat of my van, on my way to omaha, nebraska, to spend the night with my friend before i continue on the road to utah or idaho to stay a night, before i go onto california to stay for two months.
well, that gives me a week now to complete things i had not gotten done before i left. they were menial little things, that would have done fine not being completed, but now my only excuse to not complete them would be procrastination, lol

life goes on in california

life is going on. my life that is. i have pulled out of the depression it seems, as i usually do. is it bad that when i get depressed anymore, i don't worry about it? hmmm. i know, i am a strange cookie.
i have been working hard on getting ready for my trip to california. i am excited that i am going to meet people i have spoken with in some way or another, on the internet. armymoms who have shared the fears of this war that continues on.
my daughter is now a civilian, as many of the other moms i have "met". also, children of many of these moms are still soldiers. still deploying to iraq or afghanistan. their fears continuing. i am thankful that my daughter chose to "opt out" after she had her first son. to opt out is to just go home when your time is up. you did your job for however long you promised to do it, and then went home. unfortunately for many of my friends, their children did not opt out. they instead reupped. signed up for 4 more years. signed up for more time away from their families. not only their parents, but their wives and children too.
one of the moms that i have contact with, her son is leaving for his 5th tour overseas.
children are so unfair to us mothers.
in my job, i will get to deal with veterans. i do not know if it is the older guys, younger guys or a mixture of them. i just know i will be "shooting" the vets. the flu shot i will be giving is the general yearly one. the N1H1 is not available as of yet, but it will be soon. i do not know if i will be giving any of those though. never know.
well, this is not really the type of writing i wanted to do in this blog area, but i wanted to stop by and let people who are reading me to know that i am ok. i knew i would be.
huggssss